Weigh in

Well I did it, I went along to slimming world this morning and got weighed and it turns out I’d only put on half a pound! I was fully expecting a mahoosive gain. Then I realised that if I had been more mindful of what I was eating rather than feeling guilty for what I’d eaten, then I’d probably have lost a little bit. Bloomin’ guilt. So no more feeling guilty!

So im off to my sisters tomorrow and she’s lost an amazing 3 stone with slimming world. She cooks everything from scratch so we’ve decided to do some speed days (where half your plate needs to be speed foods) worth a try I feel. I’m going to be filling my time with walking and crocheting so I can’t constantly shove food in mindlessly. I’m also going to have a look at Pinterest for recipe ideas.

im feeling pretty chipper about it all (at the moment) so I’ll check back here midweek to let you know how I’m doing.

big love xx

A weighty issue

It’s official. I am the heaviest I have ever been and miserable with it. The weight crept on since having my first child, 4 years ago, and has stuck. I’ll be totally honest and say that I rejoined slimming world about 2 months ago and it has taken that long to get my half stone award! It’s just been so hard and I don’t know why?

The main reason for me wanting to lose weight is so I can start trying for another baby, so you’d think that would be enough to get me going but it seems not. True I have been busy but then that just seems like an excuse, everyone’s busy! I need a shake up. So I’ve decided to do a weekly post on here to help motivate myself (any encouragement would be welcome) maybe it will help others struggling with their weight, who knows.

I weigh tomorrow, fingers crossed the gain won’t be too bad and I shall post tomorrow with my plan for the week ahead.

wish me luck!

A reality check

It’s Sunday morning. I’ve woken feeling sluggish and still very tired but as its 9.45am I should really get up. Everything aches, it honestly feels as though I have done a full Pilates session in my sleep! That odd niggle in my knee is now a reoccurring pain that prevents me from kneeling down and getting up and hinders my walking. The sciatica I had when I was heavily pregnant has reared its head and is very painful, stopping me from doing a lot of things I wish I could. Moan, moan, moan…..sigh.

Two weeks ago I decided to leave the Slimming World group that I had been part of to follow a more natural diet (but really it was because I missed avocados). I had convinced myself that I wasn’t losing enough weight and following a diet combining more natural foods such as avacados, nuts, hummus etc etc would help me shed a lot more. It didn’t.

By the time my CPN had been to see me a week later I had put on 6lb and was feeling more miserable. My weight loss, or lack of, is a trigger for me and I could feel a low creeping up behind me. How could I have put on such an amount of weight in such a short period of time when I was eating so healthily? Except I wasn’t, if I’m honest I wasn’t eating healthily at all, I was binge eating crap. Biscuits, cakes, chocolate, white bread, chocolate spread, crisps then the healthy foods. I would eat it all in secret then feel terrible and disgusting and embarrassed. No one knew how bad it had got because I told no one.

It wasn’t until I’d got on the scales and noticed some new, sore, stretch marks on my tummy that realised I had to change. I had to change my life long negative eating habits, for good this time.  I miss chasing and running about with my son. I want to be able to tie my shoe laces without great discomfort, I don’t want to out of breath walking up the stairs of our flat anymore, I don’t want to be overweight anymore. I want to be happy with what I see when I look in the mirror. I want to be healthy. I want to be a good role model for my son.

My brother has recently lost 8lb in his first week at Slimming World and that was the kick up the bum I needed. He was so happy. I wanted that feeling. So I text my consultant and explained that I felt like a failure but wanted to come back and she was wonderful about it. So I plan to return this Thursday.

Ive planned my meals for the next 7 days using the Slimming World magazine online and have ordered our shopping online accordingly. I’m feeling determined. Wish me luck.